Day Of Boredom

in the end, i didnt strt my room's cleanup...

well, todae's wrk was boring... had alot of freetime...
but had a hardtime tryin to contact my manager...

In the end, got many complications at wrkplace due to many unexpected turn of events lol
I mean thers tml's schedule, which was left empty for the half-swing, then had to help fill up the blank...

After that, change of ppl to wrk, ended up wrkin wif my off day being interrupted...
dotz...
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well, at least sunday i can get a gd rest directly after wrk n dun need stayback...

Unorganized Thoughts

Morning ppl, actualli its oredi aftrn, i already noe that...
N, No, i woke up earlier in the morning kkz...

Abt 11am...

Jus thought of bloggin a bit...

What to do today was what im still pondering about...
Ystrday, i planned to finally strt cleaning up my room but rite now, i dun hav the mood to do it since someone hu woke up soo earlier than me didnt bother to clean up their bed... kinda pisses me off since its his own bed, why shld i tidy up for him rite?

If his was sleeping on a separate bed, i might jus leave it alone but, his sharing the same bunkbed, and its blocking the way...

Haiz, i hope after lunch, i got the mood to clean up the room...
Later have to go to wrk sumore...

Withdrawal News | Visiting | Decisions?

My Mentor aka PEM, Mr Chee has finally responded to my email about my withdrawal tender.

He says that his ok with it since he kinda knows my condition ba...
His a nice guy, but sumtimes i jus wish he wld b more initiative in some way lah...
But nonetheless his ok as he is...
You cant always complain about others wen u urself got soo many faults rite?
Ahahahaha

Well, he invited me over to his office on tue to discuss about the topic lah...
I mean, he jus concerned i guess... But noone is gona stop me frm withdrawing ba...
I jus dun feel the drive!!!
So tue, ill b in his office at abt 9am++ then i gotta meet up wif Alson aftrwards at 12nn at Yishun Mrt Station...

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Went to visit my granparents' new home at Yishun frm Thomson, at blk 138 i tink... Unit, 10-80
Anywayz, felt weird like totally weird lah... The house gave me the same feeling i had wen i was at his place way back in thomson...
But a little different... their attitude oso different lah...
Went to cut my hair aftrwards wif my sis nearby...

Cut again liao, i jus recently cut it ba bfr sch hols i tink?
Btw, tis time shorter than normal... Didnt expect Wendy cut it that short lah..
Dun mind lah... sumtimes helps to frgt troubles in a way u noe...

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Well, my new yr decision is to make a resolution of somesort but i realli dunnoe whether i shld ba... Coz rite now, my whole room is in such a mess...

I tink i better strt cleaning it up bfr it realli starts to pile up liao...

Sad News in a Way

Found out todae that my grandma hu is now in Penang, Msia will be back in SG on tue... Like wat the heck rite?
Supposedly to b on mon...

Cant blame her since she is not the one booking the ride back...
I cant blame my cousin since they are busy wrkin sumore ba...

Well, jus hope she comes home safe and rest up soon enuff to cook fd as per normal at home... since i dun realli like my mum's cooking that much...
Got not much kick in them else i help her out...

Module Withdrawals | Xmas | Salary

Well, decided to withdraw all my yr3 modules xcept for my yr2 module, mths...
I realli cant take it !!!...
I rather start all over again...
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Xmas was a damn boring day... make it that this entire week seems soo slow... Xmas was nothing special to me since after i graduated frm sec sch...

Then the day aftr that, it was even more boring... didnt expect the stock to come on that day since frm wat i noe, nobody did ordering...
Checked our ordering file n was shocked that Auntie Ann ordered on tue... thats y they came on fri...
Wah, my boss nag nag nag that day...

Sumtimes i jus wish i got another job offer thats much better but due to convenience sake, im still stayin ther...

I hate store politics!!!!

Yet, jus ignore them n u can somehow tolerate it lah... Jus treat it as a passing remark as soo...
Hopefully, todae wunt come any more stocks since weird rite? jus came ystrday n will b coming again later...

Too many stocks in my back room... my manager nag nag about it like soo many times...

Anywayz, got my salary ystrday nite at 1130pm, though they said it comes in on the 29th but smart ppl like me will always noe wen they actualli deposit it in ba...

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BTW, rite now, im jus soo pissed with some idiots... out of these idiots, im pissed wif sumone soo much i realli dun wana hear their voice nor their face...
N thers another idiot hu cant stop throw glass bottles on the roads...
Jus hope nothing happens to passerbys and him as well... but if sumting realli do happen to him, i can only say, serves him rite... since its his karma for doin such things rite?

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Listening Ear/Buddy & Issues

I jus recently msged Alson (my prudential consultant cum fren) abt meeting up with him to pay up my premium which i had forgotten for the previous and next transaction.

To me, his a guy hu will willingly listen to my probs... His my listening buddy liao
I really appreciate him being there for me to hear my probs although not verbally face to face but it does loosen myself abit from worries...

Ill be meeting him on the coming tue wen sch reopens again...
I told him things which are bugging me and what is happening to me...
Some great advises was given to me... I tink if i follow his recommendations, it will help me in someway...

Anywayz, later will be goin to wrk for Sunrise shift...
Aftr that will head to sch to take my make up pprs which i hav put on hold since long way back n tis is my last chance...
Well u can judge frm the way i am frm tis point what my character has become...

Since i tink ill be late, i hav to hail a cab to go to sch... haiz, hav to pay peak hour charge...
Will be revising to waste the time away while at wrk later... since im such a slacker now, it seems i cant get myself to study liao...

Anywayz, lets move away frm depressing topics...
After sch will go to the new Yishun Library to look for books that can help me with some issues that im havin...
Hope to find some lah...
I dun usually read but if im following Alson's advice, might as well try it rite?
Wunt hurt nor cost me xcept some time to read but its worth the sacrifice...

After that go back home for a while to clean up and rest (snooze) bfr Mark calls me out to survey the new wing of Northpoint more thoroughly... Since I myself hav yet to explore it since a long way back...
Hopefully ends quick lah... Dun tink i can afford to stay awake that long... Will hav a major headache... I hav to decline his offer for lunch if he asks me to...
Feel bad but hey, i got lunch at home waiting since my mum told me she cooking it ba...

Hopefully ill be able to wake up somewher arnd 9pm to clean up my room for abt 2hours bfr bedtime again...

Since Xmas i hav to wrk Swing shift...

Tryin my best to plan my revision, wrking and relazing days for the new yr and the mth of jan... I dun wan myself to be in a slump once sch strts again...

Searching For Motivation & Drive

Im basically looking for ways that can improve or more appropriate term would be give a source of motivation & drive for me to do something.

Right now, im just feeling very slackish and unmotivated.
I just don't wish to do much of anything else than slack around.

I've neglected my studies, friends and soon im afraid i'll even neglect my own very existence.
Im reaching the final session of my poly life and it ain't looking that great from my current position to end it at such a state.

I feel soo pathetic at times... I feel soo regretful as well... I feel like everything is hopeless once i start to reminisce back the past...

My time ain't slowing down nor is it stopping for me... Time will tick n tock itself as always for its not within man's power to control time...
The only thing i can do is that to continue to live with my pathetic self yet to change oneself as time ticks away...
A difficult journey yet it has to be done one way or another, by hook or by crook, its a do it or die...