Its' Finally Here!!!

1st things 1st, my apologies for not bloggin for the past 2wks i guess...
many things were goin thru my head n i was kinda preparing for the worse ba...
in the end many things happened but it wasnt that bad lah... i mean it was bad but argh!!! u get the drift rite?

well anywayz, been busy tryin to cope wif my life thats been tryin to change...
conclusion... -> its damn hard n difficult!!!!

i guess things like tis are meant to be done slowly since its a life changing effort thing that is affecting your life rite?

well enough of that ba... lets get back to topic
yesterday aftr cameback home frm accompanying my sis to Northpoint get her stuff from Guardian... i tink she went to buy beauty products n some hair products for her bf...
went to buy some snacks as well since i was craving for them such as sushi n cheeseballs...
wanted but donuts but gotta refrain frm it... since i hav a budget of food expenses wen im out which i dun tink alot of ppl noe abt it since i always say i dun mind spending alot on food...

actualli i do mind... jus that my budget most of the time is abt maximum SGD$20.00
its a big sum rite???
actualli its not that big if u count the number of times an average person eats a day (3), furthermore, it covers for the entire day soo if i used that money for breakfast n lunch, wen i meet u ppl for dinner i wld b eating wadever i hav left to use...

ahahaha but most of the time i dun spend out unless at dinner aftr wrk wif my frens... thats y my budget still alot ma...

ooppsss....
sidetracked again...

well back to topic again...
anywayz, came back home to get mail bfr heading up, saw a mail frm sch to me...
my guess directly was that my deferment came... which was obviously successful since...
i already got notified thru email frm mr chee... he sent if over to me bfr CNY but i was busy at wrk that i didnt hav time to check it out...
till on wed morning wen i check my emails... was happy!!!
btw, i didnt open the letter since i knew the contents but hey, im tearing it now

OOOHHH!!!
chey, jus need some procedures that i need to clear if i owe them anything... which i dun so hey, i dun need to bother...

herm, i nearly forgot abt my registration wif NS again... need to get my deferment done again nex wk.. herm, need to book a date wif Mr Chee again... better send him an email later...

well im off to do some arm weight of 5kg... jus bought them on wed...
need to train n lose some fats n build strengh... wakakakaka
though i dun tink it'll b as effective as wen others do since im like always busy
ahahahahaa

kkz....
ciao...

Checked my Mailbox

i jus went down to get the mail frm the mailbox n i thought the mail ive been waiting for finally came but unfortunately i read it wrongly... although its frm the registrar's... it was not frm exactly the registrar on the topic im on...

its a mail on NTU courses open house like that day i went with MARK to the IDP Ausie Open house...

then my 2nd reminder letter came for POO...
a few days back was frm both Biologics...

I TINK IM STARTING TO HATE MYSELF!!!

well thats wat i tink ba...
ive been on a wild mood swing for the past few days...
i tink i need to take a break for a while...
mayb tml i jus wana chill out in town area or sumting....

mayb?

haiz... feelin soo frustrated...
mayb ill do that on mon lah...

tml most probably after wrk; DAY shift, ill jus go back home to slack around...
more appropriate term would be lay around dead like a log...

wakakakaka.... *cough cough*

well get off topic abit... need register for my NS enlistment again like WTF!!!
i tink i need to do another deferment la...
haiz....
until end of the mth of feb... i tink i can tok to my PEM about that... need extend for the entire full yr... ill get it done bfr mid feb mth ba.... feelin soo frustrated.... need strt revision for the comin semester though... yet i may not even turn up for DnD....

sobz...

Withdrawal Results still unknown... | Issues...

My withdrawal results for since mon i submitted has yet to be known to me... well... ive already been absent for quite a long time that ive would have been debarred frm exams anywayz...

Been feelin irritated n stressed out for the past few days...
my family members are considered to be the cause ba...

tryin to find motivation though... yet i still cant seem to find it...
tml gotta wrk in the mornin till aftrn...
later goin out for lunch mayb???

depends on mood ba...
if not in the mood, hav to turn ah boon n ah lok down...

mood swings fill my days...

todae sumore got flowthru comin... think will alot come one again...
am i doin it by myself? think soo ba...
hope they wunt come late todae...
i dun wana go back late which i still hav to wake up earli to go to wrk for DAY shift ba...

gotta plan for the comin week yet still unknown abt my wrk roster since my manager have yet to plan it ba...
dotz...
hope she plans it soon... i dun wana wait last min... sumore i dun wana wrk nite shift anymore... tire myself out at nite wif nothing much to look after else than cleaning which wen bored how to do ritE?

Down With A Cold

hav been down with a cold since the start of the weekends...
actually was jus minor but built up to worsen, on medication from panadol cold n flu...
but im using the sachet with hot water...

panadol cold doesnt actualli help me that much...
weird... but this one does... ahahahaha...

today felt as if im was dead in the morning... ran high fever til late afternoon... was lying around the house most of the time...
wen got better, my appetite started to get better to eat lunch n dinner together...

jus ate another round of the sachet...
taste weird... mixed in honey for the taste...

Tml better visit Mr Chee to finalise that withdrawal which i cldnt edit on fri...

Lack of Sleep...

today at wrk had soo many things to shift again...
luckily shawn wrked together wif me, his dependable to a certain extent as it depends on who he work with ba...

for me, his ok ba...
got the job done before 6+am...
though i thought i could have done more cleaning works but i guess... too busy...

well, later i duno how soo hoon n shawn will wrkout for the nite...
I can onli say, he jus needs to suffer for a little extra appx 3 hours frm his strt of shift...
After that, she will b goin back... The only bad thing is that he will hav to do quite alot of cleaning lah...

Anywayz, got back home at abt 10++am
Y? well, its becoz, soo hoon asked me to stayback to key in her sales on the computer n print it out... which made me hav to wait till abt 9++

shawn suggested we go makan then comeback which by that time shld be ok to strt my paperwrk... i said, hopefully it finish printing the start of the day fast...
But to my amazement, it was delayed by 15mins...
i dun mind abt the delay but i mind the paper jam, had to manually scroll the utilities n print
soo the labour intensive to my eyes...

anywayz, after that went to check that there was no receiving file which was a hassle...
told LEN to settle it for me since i wunt b around to settle it wen they fix it...
did newspaper thingy, then while doin it, soo hoon called store...

haiz...

went back home to sleep straighaway but jus woke up... onli had abt 3+ hours of slp which aint enuff sia... hopefully tonite i can slp easier...
soo like very very tired...

Welcoming the New Year, 2009?

to me for the past few yrs, i dun realli tink too much of new yr much any longer...
i mean, its jus the starting of a new yr in the calender of the living...

nothing special for me as most of the time im workin on holidays...
thers nothing to celebrate much else than that, im ending my studies soon n that im jus gettin older with time...

Am i sounding soo negative? well, like i said, nothing much a big to me...
the onli things that are bugging me for new yrs is that time is running shorter n shorter and what is needed to b done to achieve wat i want...

resolutions? herm, well i wouldnt consider those that i have in mind to b considered resolutions... coz resolutions from studies is that majority of wat u state jus doesnt work out coz u totally frgt abt them... n u somehow along the way dont continue it or commit to it...
human behaviour...
i too used to b like that hence, after realising it, i rather not state resolutions which most probably i cant keep...

anywayz, work is gettin soo messy at my wrkplace, with issues with nearli everyone...
I jus dun like it but gotta tolerate ba...

Withdrawal Submission

30th Dec

went to sch on that day, to have a mentor/mentee session with Mr Chee..
Suppose to be at his office abt 9am around ther but ended up being late n supposedly his free the whole day but cldnt find him wen i reached...

He has somehow a lab session goin on... i was like wat the heck?
Then he said, he ends class at 12nn but i hav a meeting wif alson arnd the same time so i propose to comeback after my meeting wif alson...

Cameback to sch n started the session... Brokedown along the session... feel very the ******-up...
After that moment feel abit lighter... abit onli but it helps...
Mr Chee approves of my decision,

31st Dec

he asked me write/type a letter for withdrawal for the entire semester; what remains of it la...
anywayz, wrote it n went to pass it to him... in the morning...
he said it was ok...

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Jus read my mail, he mailed me stating i need to make ammendments to my letter...
OK
but need signature again arh? like that will take forever to process... i thought it wld get processed within a week...
Shld i bring my lappy along tml?
herm... cant b bothered? i tink ill bring it along ba...

Goin to back to wrk since im on break now...
cya...