Wavering Feelings

Right now, here currently... Im feeling rather uncertain on my current path that i hav taken...
to me, it seems soo wrong yet it doesnt feel that way as i thought it wld b

fallen ill since last wk bfr the hols...
obviously, has nothing to do with the swin flu
down with allergic reaction to something in the air...
been sneezing till my nose hurts alot...
resulting in runny nose aftr much sneezing away...

fever came about on sunday...
for jus abit...

then obviously allergies hav yet to fade by yesterday...
got better in the nite time... tink shld b ok ba todae...
dun feel that much irritation compared to the past few days...

shldnt pose any threat to others with my allergies
had to take precautions since now is the swine flu season...
dun wish to b mistook for it by others...

feeling undetermined to push myself to do alot of things
unmotivated, mind wandering elsewhere currently...
been feeling realli out of place for these few days...

my soul is now searching for sumting...
yet, unable to find that sumting
hopefully can obtain it soon...
its disrupting my studies and concentration

feelings of frustrations seems to b building up
need sumting to let it loose...
wavering feelings causing sleep deprivication

Flashing Thoughts

These past few days, my mind has been flashing thoughts about alot of things n unnecessarily putting my mind under pressure...

Though, ive been tryin to keep it empty especially on days that i require more resting moments than most...

Why is it soo hard to keep ur mind from wandering all over ur thoughts wen u jus wan to ignore everything n keep it blank?

WHY!!!!????

Tuesday's R&R Rendezvous

Met up wif my god-bro & his fren at AMK area...
Played some LAN Games...
The most lovable game that Im into right now would be Left 4 DEAD

then we went to have lunch which i didnt hav breakfast btw... soo was totally famished...
had a nice meal @ SuMo HoUsE
ate a yakimeshi set, with 2plates of gyoza n soya bean... wif 2 cups of green tea thats free
kinda filled up the spot ba...

then went to watch a movie, TAKEN, @ Cathay AMK
was quite interesting how an Ex-Sumting retiree can do soo much damage to alot of ppl in another country...
reminds me of a spy movie lol
interesting to find out that Mark had this comment aftr the show lol...

Quote: Frm Mark;
[WAH!!! like that if im like him i can overtake a country oredi sia!!!]

N i was like u hav to train urself in such a way that the character has been thru with talent n skills to be able to do wat he did ba...

well, accompanied him home by bus, then one round to mine...
promised that i will call him wen im feeling down or sumting along the lines ba

Sleeping Habits

yoz

hav u been sleeping properly?
thats wat many asks me...
well the answer is -> I don't know... Sorry

the reason y is simple... my sleeping habits are weird... i can jus fall asleep anytime i wan though i cant control it...
if i lay on the floor n shut my eyes, ill b half-asleep by the time i noe it...

nowadays, i feel very tired in the aftrns as well as directly aftr sch...
ill always take an aftrn nap no matter how late it is towards the evening period...
sumtimes, ill slp all the way to the nex morning which can b troublesome...
i also hav to take a short nap bfr wrk strts...

no idea how it became so?
hopefully it doesnt affect the time i need to do my homewrk n stuff...

Life So Far

Sch has been ok i guess
not much of a problem in coping i tink...

my timetable kinda cramped with sch n wrk directly aftr each other...
feelin kinda worn out these few days wif my flu gettin worse
skipped sch todae since my flu n sneezing was kinda the worst out of the days

everytime, directly aftr sch, i wld jus go to bed directly for a nap or slp bfr wrk where applicable
is it bcoz of the change of environment which was changed drastically since i didnt change back my slping habits n such back to wen i was schling bfrhand?

tried out wrkin while schling with such a timetable n so far found out i need more R&R time coz, its tiring for me to wrk many days jus to make ends meet, wen my body jus cant seem to hold out ba

i tink i need more resting days ba... for tis wk n the upcomin wk... shld adjust the body clock n such so that it can perform better i guess... since wrk is sumting i must continue as i got savings plan that i need to pay up without fail n its oso coz no one is supporting me for these since im already pre-independent ba...

many things happening but im tackling them as they come by as well at my own pace where i can make sound n accurate decisions without much fuss n stress

Managing Time

Managing time aka Time Management is an important skill/technique that is required in everyone's life especially those whom life is hectic as ever such as mine.

But when you really plan properly, ther will be a chance that ther is a gap, big or small doesnt matter, of free time in your hectic schedule...

This will greatly reduces the stress that you hav accumulated if one uses this free time for R&L, RELAXATION & LEISURE... well thats for me but appropriately would be that of R&R

im sticking to R&L

for me, i found out that i dun hav that much R&L in my life since my time management skills suxs to the core...
been reading up on quite a few tips on the net on how to manage my time which is soo precious to me since i hav to juggle alot of things in my hectic life

1. School
2. Part-Time Work
3. Social
4. Family
5. Academic Revision
6. R&L

I tink that these are the only things that occupy my life the most

school is a must ba... but sumtimes ppl like me tend to skip classes which aint happening this semester since im gona put effort in a perfect attendence unless im realli dying frm my sickness that i cant take it

Part-time work is a must to support my financial needs since im broke n need to use that money for my savings premium

the nex thing which is totally hilarious to my frens is Social Factor

to them, i jus couldnt find the time to hang out wif them since im married to my sch n wrk instead of being a student who is suppose to b enjoyin life...

i cant agree more wif them but i feel kinda sad abt that
will try to social more often as much wher possible since i dun wana b lonely too

i also need to set aside considerable time for my revision n r&l time since most of the time is spent of SCH, WRK

Family is included as a everyday thing since i stay wif them no?
though i dun hang out wif them often nowadays but they understand since i hav a hectic n busy life since they decided to make me into a pre-indepedent adult already soo like they cant regret it now which i totally believe they will not even hav a single thought abt it since its less a burden towards them soo they are thankful in a way? well wadever they might think/feel abt it...

I find it damn hard to survive with this measly salary that im getting
but since its closeby to home n no need of transport expenses soo like its the best option though sumtimes i jus dun wana wrk ther ba

no helping it since im in such a state ba

Well, goin to bed soon ba...

Hope i can wake up on time...

Starting Afresh

Tml is the start of the new semester for academic year 2009/2010
im not sure how its goin to be like but im thinking positive and will try and do my best in my studies as well hopefully as well as in my time management which ive always been poor at...

This comin semester, everything i do must b afresh... though ther are somethings that u cant strt afresh directly ba
it takes time to change but i hav confidence in myself to make that change though with some help from others along the way as i get sidetracked... they will help me in gettin back on course...

Frens will b ther hopefully to relieve stress and bring the morale back up as morale is a strong point in my motivation drive to do things nowadays...

tts all from me, hope tml wld go as well as i hope it will b...