Wavering Feelings

Right now, here currently... Im feeling rather uncertain on my current path that i hav taken...
to me, it seems soo wrong yet it doesnt feel that way as i thought it wld b

fallen ill since last wk bfr the hols...
obviously, has nothing to do with the swin flu
down with allergic reaction to something in the air...
been sneezing till my nose hurts alot...
resulting in runny nose aftr much sneezing away...

fever came about on sunday...
for jus abit...

then obviously allergies hav yet to fade by yesterday...
got better in the nite time... tink shld b ok ba todae...
dun feel that much irritation compared to the past few days...

shldnt pose any threat to others with my allergies
had to take precautions since now is the swine flu season...
dun wish to b mistook for it by others...

feeling undetermined to push myself to do alot of things
unmotivated, mind wandering elsewhere currently...
been feeling realli out of place for these few days...

my soul is now searching for sumting...
yet, unable to find that sumting
hopefully can obtain it soon...
its disrupting my studies and concentration

feelings of frustrations seems to b building up
need sumting to let it loose...
wavering feelings causing sleep deprivication

Flashing Thoughts

These past few days, my mind has been flashing thoughts about alot of things n unnecessarily putting my mind under pressure...

Though, ive been tryin to keep it empty especially on days that i require more resting moments than most...

Why is it soo hard to keep ur mind from wandering all over ur thoughts wen u jus wan to ignore everything n keep it blank?

WHY!!!!????

Tuesday's R&R Rendezvous

Met up wif my god-bro & his fren at AMK area...
Played some LAN Games...
The most lovable game that Im into right now would be Left 4 DEAD

then we went to have lunch which i didnt hav breakfast btw... soo was totally famished...
had a nice meal @ SuMo HoUsE
ate a yakimeshi set, with 2plates of gyoza n soya bean... wif 2 cups of green tea thats free
kinda filled up the spot ba...

then went to watch a movie, TAKEN, @ Cathay AMK
was quite interesting how an Ex-Sumting retiree can do soo much damage to alot of ppl in another country...
reminds me of a spy movie lol
interesting to find out that Mark had this comment aftr the show lol...

Quote: Frm Mark;
[WAH!!! like that if im like him i can overtake a country oredi sia!!!]

N i was like u hav to train urself in such a way that the character has been thru with talent n skills to be able to do wat he did ba...

well, accompanied him home by bus, then one round to mine...
promised that i will call him wen im feeling down or sumting along the lines ba

Sleeping Habits

yoz

hav u been sleeping properly?
thats wat many asks me...
well the answer is -> I don't know... Sorry

the reason y is simple... my sleeping habits are weird... i can jus fall asleep anytime i wan though i cant control it...
if i lay on the floor n shut my eyes, ill b half-asleep by the time i noe it...

nowadays, i feel very tired in the aftrns as well as directly aftr sch...
ill always take an aftrn nap no matter how late it is towards the evening period...
sumtimes, ill slp all the way to the nex morning which can b troublesome...
i also hav to take a short nap bfr wrk strts...

no idea how it became so?
hopefully it doesnt affect the time i need to do my homewrk n stuff...

Life So Far

Sch has been ok i guess
not much of a problem in coping i tink...

my timetable kinda cramped with sch n wrk directly aftr each other...
feelin kinda worn out these few days wif my flu gettin worse
skipped sch todae since my flu n sneezing was kinda the worst out of the days

everytime, directly aftr sch, i wld jus go to bed directly for a nap or slp bfr wrk where applicable
is it bcoz of the change of environment which was changed drastically since i didnt change back my slping habits n such back to wen i was schling bfrhand?

tried out wrkin while schling with such a timetable n so far found out i need more R&R time coz, its tiring for me to wrk many days jus to make ends meet, wen my body jus cant seem to hold out ba

i tink i need more resting days ba... for tis wk n the upcomin wk... shld adjust the body clock n such so that it can perform better i guess... since wrk is sumting i must continue as i got savings plan that i need to pay up without fail n its oso coz no one is supporting me for these since im already pre-independent ba...

many things happening but im tackling them as they come by as well at my own pace where i can make sound n accurate decisions without much fuss n stress

Managing Time

Managing time aka Time Management is an important skill/technique that is required in everyone's life especially those whom life is hectic as ever such as mine.

But when you really plan properly, ther will be a chance that ther is a gap, big or small doesnt matter, of free time in your hectic schedule...

This will greatly reduces the stress that you hav accumulated if one uses this free time for R&L, RELAXATION & LEISURE... well thats for me but appropriately would be that of R&R

im sticking to R&L

for me, i found out that i dun hav that much R&L in my life since my time management skills suxs to the core...
been reading up on quite a few tips on the net on how to manage my time which is soo precious to me since i hav to juggle alot of things in my hectic life

1. School
2. Part-Time Work
3. Social
4. Family
5. Academic Revision
6. R&L

I tink that these are the only things that occupy my life the most

school is a must ba... but sumtimes ppl like me tend to skip classes which aint happening this semester since im gona put effort in a perfect attendence unless im realli dying frm my sickness that i cant take it

Part-time work is a must to support my financial needs since im broke n need to use that money for my savings premium

the nex thing which is totally hilarious to my frens is Social Factor

to them, i jus couldnt find the time to hang out wif them since im married to my sch n wrk instead of being a student who is suppose to b enjoyin life...

i cant agree more wif them but i feel kinda sad abt that
will try to social more often as much wher possible since i dun wana b lonely too

i also need to set aside considerable time for my revision n r&l time since most of the time is spent of SCH, WRK

Family is included as a everyday thing since i stay wif them no?
though i dun hang out wif them often nowadays but they understand since i hav a hectic n busy life since they decided to make me into a pre-indepedent adult already soo like they cant regret it now which i totally believe they will not even hav a single thought abt it since its less a burden towards them soo they are thankful in a way? well wadever they might think/feel abt it...

I find it damn hard to survive with this measly salary that im getting
but since its closeby to home n no need of transport expenses soo like its the best option though sumtimes i jus dun wana wrk ther ba

no helping it since im in such a state ba

Well, goin to bed soon ba...

Hope i can wake up on time...

Starting Afresh

Tml is the start of the new semester for academic year 2009/2010
im not sure how its goin to be like but im thinking positive and will try and do my best in my studies as well hopefully as well as in my time management which ive always been poor at...

This comin semester, everything i do must b afresh... though ther are somethings that u cant strt afresh directly ba
it takes time to change but i hav confidence in myself to make that change though with some help from others along the way as i get sidetracked... they will help me in gettin back on course...

Frens will b ther hopefully to relieve stress and bring the morale back up as morale is a strong point in my motivation drive to do things nowadays...

tts all from me, hope tml wld go as well as i hope it will b...

Been Feeling Unwell

I have started to feel unwell since wed...
no idea y but hav been havin headaches n a bad flu...

nothing that serious for the flu, it comes n go, with jus alot of sneezing and runny nose ba
for the headaches, its pretty bad but i try my best to stay focus while havin it ba...
ystrdy, vomitted quite a few times coz the headache that bad...

panadol didnt help this time round...

hope i can get better by evening since, tml strt back to sch ba
can stay at home and clean up my room as well rest the whole day away as my plans to go to JB has been cancelled n postponed to nex wk...

well, nex wk will b a mayb event since i wunt noe now whether im free then or sumting pops up liao...

Person Absent

Ah Boon, didnt turn up for the function as we waited quite long for him...

called him many times n was pissed off...
didnt wait for him any longer than 30mins after repetitive phone calls
msged him stating we will wait for him for that long, if not we go do other things ba
since we were out n i had other things planned for backup anywayz ba...

we were discussing wher to go n which choices were the best at the current situation we were in inclusive of finances, weather n tml plans...
Ended up deciding to go to SSC for lunch n buying of sch stationary...
Left a msg stating we were leaving him n tt he shld jus continue slping away...

While eating lunch, HE called me, i picked up n passed to Shawn since i realli no mood talk to him on the phone as i didnt want to spoil my appetite since i was at the same time already eating...

Haiz...

well, enjoyed Shawn's company the aftrn as we had quite a great lunch...

well, i could hav been better if Ah Boon came along but since his not around... i saved quite a bit of cash ba
soo kinda gd n bad but overall, nothing in life goes exactly as u wan it soo thats y backups are impt to decision making for a day especially wif frens since u wunt noe wen they can any time dun wan to pop up...

Mindset

Got a call this morning to wake me up at abt 930am, supposed to b at 10am but nvm lah...
all the same to me...

anywayz, the phone call also stated that sumone said that he may not want to go to today's function coz of expenses have been over budget...
soo i called him but no response...
jus left an sms to him n awaited for his reply stating;
"heard u dun wan go, its ok... i dun mind... postpone the function ba... can do it another time..."

then he replied me liao...
"haha.. go go... nvm lor..."

this idiot argh!!!
soo frustrating wen his mind cant decide...
if u realli dun wan... then take a firm stand bfrhand lah...
then reject all others to make others noe that u are firm...

haiz... then wen in the midst of things.. gotta plan alot of things for backup purposes...
luckily i can think quite fast in scenarios where changes happen quicky n make up new plans...

haiz... hope he turns up later... thats all the im worried abt...

Decision Made

The decision made aftr talking over is that they want to come over though Shawn thought goin for Seoul Garden was a better idea since got more selection ba

but Ah Boon shot down the ideas by pestering n pyscho-ing that he misses my grilled fish n oso chix chop that i made the last time ba...
haiz soo childish la he...

anywayz, so like thats the plan ba...
herm, tml morning i better head for the ICA to collect my passport since i hav no clue wen ill b free anymore since most of my lessons like freakingly strts at 8am in the morning like HEY!, that the timing that i cant seem to get up n reach on time liao...

ystrdy slept late like 5am todae morning... cant seem to get to sleepy mood easily...
hopefully todae i can slp early... dun want to strain myself since sch strts in a few days time n its a long way to then...

Second Thoughts

This comin sun aftrn for lunch; Ah Boon, Shawn & Me are havin our teppanyaki lunch at my place... they already told me what they expect in the menu but rite now, im having my doubts to the finances which option is better...

thinking abt it last nite aftr sumting happened at home which is too personal to open up here soo lets leave ppl hu are curious to keep on being curious since i wunt reveal it no matter wat methods u may try to interrogate me wif wakakakaka

back to topic

the other option is to eat at Seoul Garden...
Yeah, i noe its kinda very expensive for eating ther on a weekend n if at dinner time to boot

But thinkin abt it, n calculating the cost of food n marinating sauces & spices...
i tink its better to eat all u can wif soo many different things to choose ba...
its way cheaper with splitting the total cost among 3 ppl...
Lets say, we do eat on Sun, Lunch, a pax wld be abt SGD 25?
then means if 3 ppl would total up to aound SGD 75++

then if i were to calculate the amount of food the cost that i need to buy for teppanyaki wld be... around SGD 64++
well this is a rough estimation without including the sauces n spices n stuff...
soo like the difference is abt 10+ or around ther soo like i plan to suggest go to Seoul Garden ba...
Haiz... need contact Ah Boon & Shawn later on my way to sch ba

if they realli set on comin then i got no say but i they reconsider than its good for me since i dun hav to clear the mess ba...

dun wan ppl at home later complaining...
Dun like it wen they start blaming me ba...

No one is leaving...

Fortunetly, Len, who was supposed to be workin 2jobs apparently decided to cancel her job with the Redwood company as it seems bogus to her n they lied about the workin details as well as the salary...

Lucky for us, she is more devoted in workin dwnstrs wakakakaka

Happy la but kinda feel bad that she has to wrk here wif such a low salary with her hubby not getting that much salary as usual...

Hard times ba but its not that bad unlike that time in the past wen majority had to b retrenched...
havin a job with low salary is better than without a job rite?

Unexpected Response & Decision

I got an unexpected response ystrday at wrk from my manager wen she knew how close I n Shawn have become...

well i told her its coz Shawn is my permanent substitute for a pathetic idiot hu doesnt seem to care anymore abt me nor do i care abt him tt much oredi since its realli a sour relationship now or is it bitter? herm, wadever it is... the relationship existence is in question now...

well, Shawn n me got closer long ago but didnt get this progressive coz of the idiot's existence ba
n since his out of the picture temp, might as well get someone close to fill up the gap rite?
since if lef vacant, ill hav a big hole in my self...

i dun like to feel hollow...
i hav oredi had been dealt many bfr this... dun wana make more holes liao...
dun tink i can keep being me if thats the case...


Anywayz, the other thing i wanted to say was that Len, unexpectedly changed her schedule for the entire wk n thereafter coz she had to go wrk at another place since she has to support her family where her husband now is experiencing forced leave w/o pay n shutdown i tink?

well, im supporting her n wishing her the best but i dun wana keep my hopes too high same as my manager as we think this kind of the line that she picked aint that great especially in such an economy n though i hav heard the company name bfr, i dunnoe whether it will b good for her ba...

thkz to her leaving her schedule days empty, me n manager had a hard time tryin to fill the empty blanks she left behind... somehow managed it ba... but problems for me since it clashes with wat i want for my roster...

well giv n take i guess... stress out now better than wen im stressed out oredi...

Pissed Off Ystrdy...

haiz, feelin pissed ystrdy during the last few hours of my wrk time wif a colleague...

tt person damn stubborn to the core n doesnt want to give into the fight wen in 1st shldnt b happening since its her job rather than mine... yet she insisted that she doesnt want it n force me to do sia!!!

haiz...

if anything wrong or wadever that comes due to her!!!
ill blame her for everything n i shall not bother to even take any slight punishment nor tolerate any nagging or similarities that comes to me later...

F IT MAN!!!!

Health Status -> All better else than tired...

Yoz...

how hav u ppl been?
my sincerest apologies for not being able to blog for the past few wks...
i have been busy with other affairs lah

hmm... busy wif wat some may b pondering hmm...
well ive been busy with personal affairs mainly concerning myself, friends n family
thers also work affairs that hav been keeping me occupied...

these affairs all came popping out together once i was all better oredi n able...

have been busy trying to settle most of them ba
well most of them are settled but thers always new ones popping out of the blue u noe...
one aftr another... trials of life?

well, wadever it is... my time, my life keeps ticking away, gotta live thru it as its part of life

UPS N DOWNS, FILLS MY LIFE...
TRIALS N ERRORS, BUILDS MY SELF...

MY TIME, MY LIFE, WILL KEEP ON TICK-TOCKING...

Im all OK else than my voice & throat...

todae, went for my ENT checkup at TTSH...
was the 2nd last patient to go into the checkup bfr all of them goes for lunch...

doctor said, it looks much better and nearly healed up properly...
hav to avoid getting water into the ears meaning water sports is a NO-NO
then how to swim?
well simple! use water proof earplugs lor...

yet, im a bad swimmer liao...
soo like i rather not swim as well soo like its following the DOC's orders ba

sent my sms to my manager stating im all OK to go back to wrk next wk & hav given her my available dates to wrk...
jus waiting for her to reply me... yet i dun tink she will ba...
will jus visit the store another time wen im free ba... mayb sat?

if somehow... no job for me rite?
ill jus look for a new one ba...
its hard to get a PT job or even more less any job whether its FT or PT or even TEMP...

hope i can wrk back my usual place ba
lazy n tiresome to look for another one...
more appropriate wld b it will take alot of effort n time n not forgetting that i may not get the job ba...
soo frustrating soo like i prefer the old job even though it gets on my nerves at times but hey!

Feeling Much Better

my ears n throat got better during the weekend since i was like doin nothing much, jus rested throughout n spending quality time with the family at home...
by watching movies at home together n enjoyin dinner together as well...

my dad soo nice... paid for the Pizza i ordered online...on sat nite aftr sending off my cousin n in-law from JB to the airport like under the block waiting for called cab for their one of many honeymoons to Turkey...
well he was ther n he was like goin thru the order with me... in frnt of the PC
didnt expect him to pay since i was the one hu suggested it since i was super hungry n haven had pizza since like dunno wen...
shared the pizza with everyone...
was happy!!!

Today, got up this morning like just now...
my throat feels itchy n dry... well... it haven fully recover soo like it happens ba...
my ears still do feel throbbing pain but not that bad lah... last a few mins only or so...
i mean it does still feel like it used to but at least my hearing has become better n i soo wish to go back to wrk soon like ASAP!!!
ah boon missed called me alot of times... didnt notice since my phone always not near me...
must b bcoz i supposedly suppose to go to indoor wrk...
his a nice guy n i realli dun wan disturb him but hey... i rather rest now n b fit for wrk ASAP...
finances are dryin up fast n if i wrk where im not in tip top condition...
then ill be back to where i was if anything were to happen like it will lah...

either it will go back to where it was before or it will take as super long time to recover lor...
haiz...

at least im feelin much better but still recoverin n yet the effects are still ther n affecting me...
soo like, hey, jus bear it till it goes fully away rite?
well, i dun tink it will totally go away till a long time but must continue with the medication ba...

now while typing all this... im havin a headache...
XD ouch!!!

No Work Til Further Notice

it seems the doctors' orders are like absolute...
been feeling tired for the past few days n its kinda getting worse...

mayb i need to take in more iron n calcium, magnesium is good too...
will not be able to wrk anytime soon, even if im forced to due to circumstances, i dun tink im fit to wrk during this time period...

it seems as if im jus not ready yet...
supposed to go to Indoor today but i remembered got apptmnt with the polyclinic...
went ther... doctor still says i shldnt b wrkin till the doctor at ENT gives approval...

haiz...
hope i can strt back wrk frm the 23rd onwards if not im in deep shit level...
my granma is helping me pay my leftover balance that i require for my premiums using her GST offset package...
I LUV MY GRANMA!!!
she soo nice to me unlike the rest of my family members...

i plan to wrk as much as possible once im able to but it depends on my manager as well rite?
i better not forget to put time aside for my strt of revision as well rite?
most probably it will all be strt to roll later on mon ba...
strt of revision as well as the strt of my health recovery plan...

i better properly plan my finances as well...
i mean hey!!! ive been saying that like since wen arh, n yet it nvr did got pass thru rite?
better get serious.... my last yr in poly gonna strt soon all over again in mid april...
got no time to play around ba... wakakakakakaka

Money Woes... / Troubled Hearing

since im still on no wrk from doctors' orders, i feel soo financially deprived...
i gotta pay for my premiums that will total cost me abt 300+/mth

n since, i didnt wrk too much with 7-11 recently, i dun tink i hav enuff to cover that cost liao...
haiz... feel like in deep shit...
i oredi paid fully for this mth premiums, meaning i aint hav any trouble with it but the trouble strts with the upcomin month since like...
the upcomin salary frm 7-11 is like abt 100+ only... where am i gettin my 200 from??
the only way for that to happen is for me to wrk with Ah Boon side...

the only thing that worries n trouble me is that i can hardly hear properly... can i still communicate with the customers n ppl?
i jus hav to do it ba...
if they cant hear me or the opposite, ill jus do it i guess...
my voice still very sore, hard to come out...

I guess for the sake of money!!! i jus hav to do it ba...
i tink ill call in Ah Boon tml to hear the details ba...
its Disney On Ice upcomin event...

I still need to plan out my revision timings as well for the hols...
ARGH!!! Stressing myself out aint gd....

Haiz... Next appointment on Thu, 19th March...
Hope it goes well... N I hope i can hear better by then...

Sick, Sick & Still Sick

the last wk of FEB, ive actualli fallen sick abit but it didnt get any more worse until it was realli near the end of FEB...

down with high fever, sore throat n infection, ear infectiion, and no hearing n voice to add along...

went to ENT aftr about a week of no sign of recovery for the ear...
went to Polyclinic on Tue for check-up then referral on the same day to TTSH ENT in the aftrn...
further checkup 2days later on thu...
the next checkup is in 2wks time...
19th March, Wed

todae, went for my gal-fren's 21st bdae...
OK ba... no probs unlike some other ppls'
went to n fro with Weide...
shared the bdae present wif him as well... saved abt 5bucks thanks to him, unless i were to buy myself since my budget was 30+
ahahahahaha

hard for ppl to hear me since my voice doesnt project out...
found that out wen i went to buy BK on my way home...
the staff cldnt hear me properly...
to me, i was like forcing the voice out to the max i cld...
straining my throat oredi...

n thats y i cant strt back my wrk... no one can hear me nor can i hear them properly...

Partly Sunburned | Unbearable

After my practical on Wed, i noticed that part of my arms are sunburned quite badly till todae...
its like a dark red patch on my arms... *lower arms*

not planning to go for any practical sessions till nex wk... alot of things rite now goin thru my mind...
oh yeah, advanced to lesson 2 oredi...
hopefully the nex wk can complete lesson two as well as advance abit more... to lesson 3...
i wonder whether i hav to take my RTT again or not?
its been a very long time...
i tink i better go n take it again ba...
need restudy again i tink???
well its kinda free anyway rite?

ahahahahahaha

well, later gotta go to wrk for SWING shift...
nex wk no work at all since im kinda looking for a PT job else than this coz its gettin unbearable...
SERIOUSLY UNBEARABLE

gettin more nonsensical n irritating la the management above n the tightening of their new nonsensical policy...

Wats Up

aftr my practical, on mon, went back home straight... didnt want to book using the counter coz it was packed with people waiting for enrollment or booking or god noes wat lah...

too many ppl n sumore i was havin a stomachache... dun wana wait too long...
went straight home... dropped at Khatib to get on a bus home since i was gona rain...
in the bus rained liao...
lucky me... i dropped ther n got on a bus straight away though i had to run abit to catch it.

reached home, went to get mail n saw the GST package!!!
soo gd for those adults... sad for me hus not yet 21...

went to eat then went to book for the nex practical on wed aftrn...
on the internet using VISA since its more convenient n sumore i can book an earlier date than the counter can give...

LUCKY ME!!!
though got xtra charge but hey...
aftr todae... i wonder whether to take up fri morning class??? fri im working SWING bah...
wonder hus takin half-swing on that day?

c hu lah... if not i tink i wana switch wif that person to me goin half-swing or ask sumone to sub me in... but hey i dun even noe much anymore...haiz
or ill book on sat morning/aftrn or sun can oso since sun im free... but i dun wana pay the peak price... though its onli a few dollars more but im tryin to be scrimpy...

haiz... will c how later...

Start From Basics

my practical had to strt frm the basics all over again but hey, was appreciative of it since i was rusty ba...

went to advance to outer circuit where i changed all the way to 4th gear
still got one more gear to go but thats unavailable since thats for speedin use ba

fun but tiring since weather soo hot...
booked lesson for wed aftrn...
wakakakkaakkaaka

can wait till that day to continue...
since i need to rest up as well...

Continuing Class 2B Practical

Finally, im continuing my practical sessions after much delays wakakakkakaa

feelin damn happy finally got quite alot of free time to myself ba...

ahahahahahha

wonder how it will go like?
since its been soo long that i continued ba...
mayb strt back frm the strt?
well im rusty but i still remember how to ride it ba since like im always riding my bicycle...

yea, i noe its diff but hey its all the same 2 wheelers to me except that one with and engine n many more application to apply on it wakakakkakaa

damn excited...
will b goin ther at noon...
lesson strts at 1pm...

checked all the items i need...
wakakakakaka

Wedding Event

wah!!!
im realli gettin paid 10bucks...
in actual fact, i shldnt b gettin paid my mum told me coz she insisted for the so called 'kendarat badge' which has a 10bucks stuck to it...

ahahahaha
my intuition was rite i guess yet im not that happy abt it since my cousin's workforce which consists mainly of his frens was gettin paid 10bucks as well arh?
like soo kelian n they did soo much for outsiders...

but i did more than them lah...
i mean, i was like multitasking all the while here n ther like idiot...

didnt like it one bit on how things went, prefer to wrk back wif my catering side....


well, wtf... dun wan to bother abt it sia...

Fallen Sick Somehow But Recovering | Wedding Event Later

haiz, fallen sick durin the 2days that i didnt blog meaning on thu n fri ba...
ahahahaha
wat sickness?
well jus a common flu which made my nose soo sensitive that i've been sneezing most of the time...

haiz...
soo 'kelian' me...

today, still abit runny n stuff but no choice...
i really wana stay at home as well coz realli not in the mood n condition to go help out at wedding...
sumore im not getting paid i tink ...

n if they pay me... i tink it wld b soo cheapo lor...
lets say i tink 10bucks arh?
since they makin the wedding soo the budget like hell...
seriously budget liao...

sumore my upper body still soo stiff with the flu makin it a slow healing progress...
well anywayz, i realli dun wana go later...

Tue Idling | Wed Outing

Yesterday, Tue 10/2

I woke up due to the hectic noise coming from the living room...
i only slept for a freaking 4hours which aint enuff for me liao...
was feeling soo dreadful...
my whole upper body was aching n stiff coz ive been turning n tossing myself around on the bed coz tryin to get into a nice position to allow me to ignore the noise...

no choice but to wake up...
eyes were dried up...
scolded those hu made noise...
didnt do much later on coz was jus damn tired...


TODAE, Wednesday, 11/2

my mum woke me up dunnoe wat time but was damn earli for me... since i couldnt sleep last nite till super late abt 3+am...

she said sumting which was hazy wen i woke up...
woken up by my granma hu has been pestering me to wake up since 9am which is still damn earli... woke up abt 920am...
she then tell me abt why waking up soo earli...
lol didnt expect the news abt wat happened in the mornin breakfast time slot bfr i had to wake up...

went to GIANT sumwher arnd 1030+am...
went ther wif Dad n Mum...
Bought my LCD tv 22inch...
Dad paid 1st, payin him by installments...
dun hav cash at hand...
budget...

then jus came back home frm last min shopping wif Ah Boon & Ah Lok...
went to GIANT lol... & DAISO...
was lookin for Ah Lok the choco mold to make Valentine's Choco for his dear...
very last min liao...
suppose to complete by tml since must giv his dear on fri...
lol...

very funny la the story abt everything lol...
dun wan say here... later kena frm him
wakakakakaa

Nite Shift / Made A Fren

jus came back frm eating brkfast aftr my nite shuft jus now...
well pretty boring for mon nitez since everyone is workin during this point of time of the wk ba...

Shawn was unexpectedly accompanying me throughout the nite...
I didnt ask him to do that but im thankful...
if not ill b sleeping mayb...

Aftrwards both of us went to Cheers ATM ther... wanted draw small ones but no have...
interestingly, got cute cat guarding the Cheers entrance...
CUTE & NICE!!!

went into Cheers buy cat food for it... yes i disposed it later aftr the cat dun wan eat anymore kk...
must be responsible ba...
tore a page frm my notebk to put in on the flooring since its good hygiene ba... call the cat... noticed it then came towards us bfr i opened the cat fd...
it was impatient ...
hahaha
had to shoo it away since it was standing on top of the paper tray (page frm my pad)
hehe...

played around wif it ther wif a straw that was like a cats' toy to it...
mainly Shawn had fun wif it...
aftr eating clear the area...
scratch it around the neck...
dunnoe whether it was irritated by my actions or wanted to play around... bite me twice but not pain...
so i guess playin?
well, i used to minor injuries since i kinda always get cuts and stuff frm wrk...
used to it liao...
hehee...
named it MIMI
wakakakakaka

then went to Chong Pang Hawker to buy brkfast for home n myself...
then aftr tt eat then here i am blogging...
wakakakaka

goin to sch later to photocopy stuff then go ssdc to book session for nex mon...
come back then slp later lah... not sleepy yet...

Not going for DnD

im planning to go overseas either bfr DnD or on the wk itself...
thats y i decided to withdraw from attending it liao...

I jus feel that if either way wher im lucky that i dun go on that wk, it will jus b a hindrance to last min cancel it ba if it happens to b on that wk soo better take precautions ba since its like waste of money wher some ppl tel me...

feelin a bit down nowadays...
mayb lackin of iron n calcium???

haiz...

feelin very bottled...

Incident @ Wrk

haiz, i cant believe this incident similar to the last happened...
i got slapped n threatened by an idiotic drunk malay teen...

he soo sensitive sia... i nvr do wrng to him siao oredi la he...
well, aftr that he came back to apologize to me...
weird...
lucky his frens around to cool him down...
i say his lucky n shld b thankful to them...
if he was to piss me off more...
i cant stop myself to retaliate no? i mean must defend myself n i wunt noe wat ill do in my rage...
mayb he kena stabbed by my penknife later???

hu noes wat humans can accomplish wen they are in an adrenaline rush...
wakakakakaka
soo dangerous khor the human state in a rage...

Others busier than me...

It seems some of my friends are now rushing their reports and presentation for the FYP...
well, mine is still a long way to go ba...
but the funny thing is that someone is still workin their attachment at this point of time...
I wonder how come? since some already said they are done...

Strange? mayb extension??? well wadever it is... i noe they are getting paid n stuff soo shouldnt bug into it rite? jus find it weird but hey! as long ther is income... i dun mind it either in this economy lol...

its soo obvious that they are more busy ten times than me...
*(exaggerating here)*
well, no such thing as ten times...
i tink if they were to b in my shoes i tink they cant handle it ba...
my life is upside down as it is yet its hectic n stressful as well...
i wonder if some of my frens can come close to tis??

well shldnt bother abt that since whats the chances ritE???
anywayz, i dun wish them to bug into my life as well soo i guess its only a thought n opinion wakakakakaka....

No Peace & Quiet

ppl always thought having ur own tv inside the room is great especially if thers a game console in the room to play without disturbing ur family members who are usually in the house else than ur room wher, they dun hav to hog the main big sreen tv wif u for playing ur games on them...

but my case differs big time than that now since, i dun usually play games nowadays...
n my tv is being invaded wher also comes my room being invaded...
all due to my family members all now got different channels they want to watch n some of them could not b watched on the main screen as its using CABLE whereas mine is using the HDB antenna plugged-in hence i get some of the Malaysian channels ba...

haiz...
sumtimes wen i sleeping earli like freaking earli like jus now, where i thought i jus dunwana wake up til tml, their noisy actions woke me up entirely...
the tv damn noisy and sumore they squabble abt the measly show n somemore...
the worst thing i cant take it is that my bro had to learn spelling out loud with my mum, n still commenting on the tv which means...
he was bloody not payin attention to his learning instead watchin tv as well...

WTH!!!

how to focus like that sia... damn irritating n frustrating to stay in this room... gotta save up get another tv soo i can put tis one in my room to the kitchen area soo they can watch it ther ba...

Naggish War @ Home...

the war of nagging on my lil bro finally died down...
damn freakingly irritating n frustrating to the core...

I realli dun like to stay in this house especially during this time wen they like to scold my bro...

well its partly his fault anywayz since his jus plain lazy to do his homework n tends to get scolded by my mum who is a short fuse when it comes to his hmwrk...
he doesnt like to sit ther n finish it in one go...
he likes to touch n go... wen scolded or more appropriate, jus wen asked to do... he would go into cryin frenzy...

such a cry baby i tell u... soo sensitive... some say he supposedly suppose to b born a girl but didnt happen...
haiz...

OMG!!! here comes the same freakin noise again...


I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!

haiz... no peace watsoever... T_T

WTH!!! I CAN'T SLEEP!!!

WTH!!!

i jus woke up n i cant seem to fall asleep again...
i woke up aftr a weird dream that i hav...

then felt the urge to go to the washroom...
now im sittin in frnt of the computer bcoz... I cant use the TV as my bro is sleepin in frnt of it/n theres nothing else that i can do else than the computer n Im jus wide awake rite now without havin any urge to sleep whereas its the opposite...

My Lil' Bro's Bdae

todae, my lil bro turns 9 tis yr... though his born at abt 1153 or 1158pm... ahahahhaa
soo officially, his not yet due wakakakakaka

today, his mood soo weird... well its a norm for me to c such a scene since his always like that most of the time...
dad bought him his bdae gift costing nearly SGD$50
its a toy helicopter...
well, if memory serves me right...
no one in my family buys me gifts that costs like that for my bdae bfr...
i feel soo green at times...

his lucky my parents pamper him... while i was kinda neglected while i was growing up...
well hack it lah...
the only ting i liked todae was his bdae cake... soo nice!!!!

I dun like Sundays

for me, sunday is a pretty much boring day...
i prefer to wrk on this day but my place aint hav customer rush on this particular day till super late...
ITS A SUNDAY AFTERALL!!!

i prefer to wrk 7-11pm where aftr that i go straight back home wakakakaka

bfr wrk, was pretty damn boring at home with nothing much to watch on the TV...
haiz...
luckily wrk will occupy the rest of the day ba... which only 4hours lah since i cant last that long on sundays anwayz...
u will c me like batt dead... wakakakakkaa

Alone...

I jus woke up abt 30mins ago n no one is at home... wakakakakaka
no idea where they went though...

Mayb they told me sumting while i was sleeping...
i hav a weird habit of not remembering what ppl say while i was sleepin although i replied them mayb... ahahaha... subconsciously replied them though i dun know wat lah...

woke up wif a splittin headache...
nothing much to do today else than to go to wrk later at 7pm...

now got news of my wrkplace being franchised over n not sure whether ill b wrking ther if it happens... hope i can wrk at the new rumored new store at NorthPoint when it opens in April ba...
thats what they say lah...
hopefully got backup place if not... i hav to go n find other wrk elsewhere ba...

Messy Plans...

jus came back frm wrk abt 1h+ ago after eating dinner as well...
ended wrk at 2am but went to eat dinner wif Ah Boon & Ah Lok...

frm wat i can tell, my plans nowadays seems to be very messy and messed up wif unexpected things cropping up last min sorts...
frustrating really!!!

watched some anime vids n now finally feelin sleepier...
haiz... but cant seem to fall asleep easier soo here i am bloggin ba...

right now, feeling kinda lost on how to spend my days... i mean i know wat im suppose to be doin which hav yet to b started since sum other things are buggin me n constraining me frm strtin those things i realli need to strt quite some time ago...

haiz... its a bother to think too much ba...

i tink ill ponder abt it more once i wake up frm my sleep...
hopefully by that time, sumting wld b able to crop out frm my mind since ill b more fresh ba...

Its' Finally Here!!!

1st things 1st, my apologies for not bloggin for the past 2wks i guess...
many things were goin thru my head n i was kinda preparing for the worse ba...
in the end many things happened but it wasnt that bad lah... i mean it was bad but argh!!! u get the drift rite?

well anywayz, been busy tryin to cope wif my life thats been tryin to change...
conclusion... -> its damn hard n difficult!!!!

i guess things like tis are meant to be done slowly since its a life changing effort thing that is affecting your life rite?

well enough of that ba... lets get back to topic
yesterday aftr cameback home frm accompanying my sis to Northpoint get her stuff from Guardian... i tink she went to buy beauty products n some hair products for her bf...
went to buy some snacks as well since i was craving for them such as sushi n cheeseballs...
wanted but donuts but gotta refrain frm it... since i hav a budget of food expenses wen im out which i dun tink alot of ppl noe abt it since i always say i dun mind spending alot on food...

actualli i do mind... jus that my budget most of the time is abt maximum SGD$20.00
its a big sum rite???
actualli its not that big if u count the number of times an average person eats a day (3), furthermore, it covers for the entire day soo if i used that money for breakfast n lunch, wen i meet u ppl for dinner i wld b eating wadever i hav left to use...

ahahaha but most of the time i dun spend out unless at dinner aftr wrk wif my frens... thats y my budget still alot ma...

ooppsss....
sidetracked again...

well back to topic again...
anywayz, came back home to get mail bfr heading up, saw a mail frm sch to me...
my guess directly was that my deferment came... which was obviously successful since...
i already got notified thru email frm mr chee... he sent if over to me bfr CNY but i was busy at wrk that i didnt hav time to check it out...
till on wed morning wen i check my emails... was happy!!!
btw, i didnt open the letter since i knew the contents but hey, im tearing it now

OOOHHH!!!
chey, jus need some procedures that i need to clear if i owe them anything... which i dun so hey, i dun need to bother...

herm, i nearly forgot abt my registration wif NS again... need to get my deferment done again nex wk.. herm, need to book a date wif Mr Chee again... better send him an email later...

well im off to do some arm weight of 5kg... jus bought them on wed...
need to train n lose some fats n build strengh... wakakakaka
though i dun tink it'll b as effective as wen others do since im like always busy
ahahahahaa

kkz....
ciao...

Checked my Mailbox

i jus went down to get the mail frm the mailbox n i thought the mail ive been waiting for finally came but unfortunately i read it wrongly... although its frm the registrar's... it was not frm exactly the registrar on the topic im on...

its a mail on NTU courses open house like that day i went with MARK to the IDP Ausie Open house...

then my 2nd reminder letter came for POO...
a few days back was frm both Biologics...

I TINK IM STARTING TO HATE MYSELF!!!

well thats wat i tink ba...
ive been on a wild mood swing for the past few days...
i tink i need to take a break for a while...
mayb tml i jus wana chill out in town area or sumting....

mayb?

haiz... feelin soo frustrated...
mayb ill do that on mon lah...

tml most probably after wrk; DAY shift, ill jus go back home to slack around...
more appropriate term would be lay around dead like a log...

wakakakaka.... *cough cough*

well get off topic abit... need register for my NS enlistment again like WTF!!!
i tink i need to do another deferment la...
haiz....
until end of the mth of feb... i tink i can tok to my PEM about that... need extend for the entire full yr... ill get it done bfr mid feb mth ba.... feelin soo frustrated.... need strt revision for the comin semester though... yet i may not even turn up for DnD....

sobz...

Withdrawal Results still unknown... | Issues...

My withdrawal results for since mon i submitted has yet to be known to me... well... ive already been absent for quite a long time that ive would have been debarred frm exams anywayz...

Been feelin irritated n stressed out for the past few days...
my family members are considered to be the cause ba...

tryin to find motivation though... yet i still cant seem to find it...
tml gotta wrk in the mornin till aftrn...
later goin out for lunch mayb???

depends on mood ba...
if not in the mood, hav to turn ah boon n ah lok down...

mood swings fill my days...

todae sumore got flowthru comin... think will alot come one again...
am i doin it by myself? think soo ba...
hope they wunt come late todae...
i dun wana go back late which i still hav to wake up earli to go to wrk for DAY shift ba...

gotta plan for the comin week yet still unknown abt my wrk roster since my manager have yet to plan it ba...
dotz...
hope she plans it soon... i dun wana wait last min... sumore i dun wana wrk nite shift anymore... tire myself out at nite wif nothing much to look after else than cleaning which wen bored how to do ritE?

Down With A Cold

hav been down with a cold since the start of the weekends...
actually was jus minor but built up to worsen, on medication from panadol cold n flu...
but im using the sachet with hot water...

panadol cold doesnt actualli help me that much...
weird... but this one does... ahahahaha...

today felt as if im was dead in the morning... ran high fever til late afternoon... was lying around the house most of the time...
wen got better, my appetite started to get better to eat lunch n dinner together...

jus ate another round of the sachet...
taste weird... mixed in honey for the taste...

Tml better visit Mr Chee to finalise that withdrawal which i cldnt edit on fri...

Lack of Sleep...

today at wrk had soo many things to shift again...
luckily shawn wrked together wif me, his dependable to a certain extent as it depends on who he work with ba...

for me, his ok ba...
got the job done before 6+am...
though i thought i could have done more cleaning works but i guess... too busy...

well, later i duno how soo hoon n shawn will wrkout for the nite...
I can onli say, he jus needs to suffer for a little extra appx 3 hours frm his strt of shift...
After that, she will b goin back... The only bad thing is that he will hav to do quite alot of cleaning lah...

Anywayz, got back home at abt 10++am
Y? well, its becoz, soo hoon asked me to stayback to key in her sales on the computer n print it out... which made me hav to wait till abt 9++

shawn suggested we go makan then comeback which by that time shld be ok to strt my paperwrk... i said, hopefully it finish printing the start of the day fast...
But to my amazement, it was delayed by 15mins...
i dun mind abt the delay but i mind the paper jam, had to manually scroll the utilities n print
soo the labour intensive to my eyes...

anywayz, after that went to check that there was no receiving file which was a hassle...
told LEN to settle it for me since i wunt b around to settle it wen they fix it...
did newspaper thingy, then while doin it, soo hoon called store...

haiz...

went back home to sleep straighaway but jus woke up... onli had abt 3+ hours of slp which aint enuff sia... hopefully tonite i can slp easier...
soo like very very tired...

Welcoming the New Year, 2009?

to me for the past few yrs, i dun realli tink too much of new yr much any longer...
i mean, its jus the starting of a new yr in the calender of the living...

nothing special for me as most of the time im workin on holidays...
thers nothing to celebrate much else than that, im ending my studies soon n that im jus gettin older with time...

Am i sounding soo negative? well, like i said, nothing much a big to me...
the onli things that are bugging me for new yrs is that time is running shorter n shorter and what is needed to b done to achieve wat i want...

resolutions? herm, well i wouldnt consider those that i have in mind to b considered resolutions... coz resolutions from studies is that majority of wat u state jus doesnt work out coz u totally frgt abt them... n u somehow along the way dont continue it or commit to it...
human behaviour...
i too used to b like that hence, after realising it, i rather not state resolutions which most probably i cant keep...

anywayz, work is gettin soo messy at my wrkplace, with issues with nearli everyone...
I jus dun like it but gotta tolerate ba...

Withdrawal Submission

30th Dec

went to sch on that day, to have a mentor/mentee session with Mr Chee..
Suppose to be at his office abt 9am around ther but ended up being late n supposedly his free the whole day but cldnt find him wen i reached...

He has somehow a lab session goin on... i was like wat the heck?
Then he said, he ends class at 12nn but i hav a meeting wif alson arnd the same time so i propose to comeback after my meeting wif alson...

Cameback to sch n started the session... Brokedown along the session... feel very the ******-up...
After that moment feel abit lighter... abit onli but it helps...
Mr Chee approves of my decision,

31st Dec

he asked me write/type a letter for withdrawal for the entire semester; what remains of it la...
anywayz, wrote it n went to pass it to him... in the morning...
he said it was ok...

-----------------------------

Jus read my mail, he mailed me stating i need to make ammendments to my letter...
OK
but need signature again arh? like that will take forever to process... i thought it wld get processed within a week...
Shld i bring my lappy along tml?
herm... cant b bothered? i tink ill bring it along ba...

Goin to back to wrk since im on break now...
cya...