Unexpected Response & Decision

I got an unexpected response ystrday at wrk from my manager wen she knew how close I n Shawn have become...

well i told her its coz Shawn is my permanent substitute for a pathetic idiot hu doesnt seem to care anymore abt me nor do i care abt him tt much oredi since its realli a sour relationship now or is it bitter? herm, wadever it is... the relationship existence is in question now...

well, Shawn n me got closer long ago but didnt get this progressive coz of the idiot's existence ba
n since his out of the picture temp, might as well get someone close to fill up the gap rite?
since if lef vacant, ill hav a big hole in my self...

i dun like to feel hollow...
i hav oredi had been dealt many bfr this... dun wana make more holes liao...
dun tink i can keep being me if thats the case...


Anywayz, the other thing i wanted to say was that Len, unexpectedly changed her schedule for the entire wk n thereafter coz she had to go wrk at another place since she has to support her family where her husband now is experiencing forced leave w/o pay n shutdown i tink?

well, im supporting her n wishing her the best but i dun wana keep my hopes too high same as my manager as we think this kind of the line that she picked aint that great especially in such an economy n though i hav heard the company name bfr, i dunnoe whether it will b good for her ba...

thkz to her leaving her schedule days empty, me n manager had a hard time tryin to fill the empty blanks she left behind... somehow managed it ba... but problems for me since it clashes with wat i want for my roster...

well giv n take i guess... stress out now better than wen im stressed out oredi...